I’ve been trying to figure out for months now what to do with this blog. I started it only at the request of my father and while I was more than happy to do it while he was alive, I don’t think it’s something I really want to maintain anymore.
Do I delete it? Leave it standing as a tribute of sorts? Questions, questions and I’ve not wanted to rush an answer but I think it’s time to Do Something other than just not making posts anymore. I’m going to leave the blog standing but I am removing the contact form and pinning this post to the top so people will (hopefully) realize it’s a place to read through but not subscribe to.
I know the ‘right-to-die’ cause is an important one but it just isn’t my cause and my heart has never really been in the fight. Without true passion, there is no way to be an effective activist. The thought of waking up now and signing in to work on a cause I’m half-hearted about at best, combined with the fact that I am signing into…erm…my dead father’s blog…Well, let’s just say it’s not something that makes me want to spring out of bed in the mornings.
So, that’s that. Writing this makes me sad because I know that Dad hoped I would really throw myself into this cause and rip things up to make a change in laws but…He also hoped that I’d grow up to be a rabbi, not the irreverent, snarky atheist that I am – and he got over that disappointment & loved me anyways. He, more than anyone, would understand that it is not possible for me to give up my life to something that makes me miserable and he would certainly never expect or want me to die on a mountain that I never even wanted to climb in the first place.
Thank you all so very, very much for your support here. It meant the world to my dad & I both and there is just no way to say, “Thank You” that could begin to express the gratitude I feel. Thank you, thank you, thank you all.
PS – I will now return to my original blogging & hell-raising on the blogs I left neglected while I took care of Dad’s wishes, family stuffs & of course, this blog.